Wednesday, April 24, 2024

Fifteen Years? How?

My dad died this week in 2009. Which somehow seems like it was yesterday, and yet also like it was a hundred years ago. As I have felt ever since, according to some of my blog posts since then.

  • A Year Later, if you can believe it
  • It seems impossible--feels impossible--that it can have been two years since my dad died, but so the calendar tells me. Isn't time the strangest thing?
  • It's an impossible amount of time both ways, since it somehow feels like he just died, and that he's been gone forever.
  • Ten Years. Ten Years?

I have a photo of him on the wall above my desk, and sometimes I will look up at it, inviting him to join me in rolling my eyes over some work thing, or reminding him that he hasn't pulled off a big lottery win for us yet. Any time, Dad!



9 comments:

  1. He has a friendly face and a great smile. My dad died March 22, 2021. I can't believe it's been three years, yet I echo your sentiment. It seems like yesterday and yet forever ago. There's been so much I've wanted to share with him: good books, political talks, the grandsons, hugs, etc. He was one of my best friends.

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  2. I understand. My own father died about 24 years ago, and I feel like that cannot possibly be true.

    I love that you still communicate with your dad, especially humorously. And I hope he comes through for you with the cash!

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    1. He hasn't yet! But we do credit him for every green light and miraculous parking spot--those were his specialties.

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  3. What a warm welcoming smile--I wish I could have met him. I'm glad I got to meet his daughter!

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  4. What a lovely smile, indeed. Time and grief are such a complicated web; there is no expiration date on our grief, but the concept of time passing can be such a weird sensation. It sounds like he lived well and you have very fond memories of your shared experiences <3

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    1. So true! Like many things in life, it isn't a strictly linear process. Being human can be so messy.

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  5. Thinking of you on this milestone day. It's weird to think about milestones, isn't it? Some are good, some are bad, some are just the days we start new jobs. It's fun to hear your stories of him and I hope his memory brings you happiness.

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  6. I know what you mean. I lost both my parents in 2012 within 3 months of each other. I still can't reconcile it's been 12 years.

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