The good news is that the expected storm shifted away from us and I saw
no snow yesterday or today; I can't be sorry about that. I will admit, however, that I had been looking forward to working from home today, and not being freezing cold all
day, so going in made me crabby. To have to wear two shirts, two jackets (with the fleece zipped up
to the chin, and collar turned up to break the breeze over my ears,
honest to god, before I gave up and put on my hat), long johns, and both
wrist-warmers and fingerless gloves, while sitting in front of a space
heater... I'm working from home tomorrow, I told my boss, and she was
fine with it. Fortunately.
It didn't help that I was so tired. It simply isn't
practicable for me to go to sleep at 8 every night, but I wonder how
much of a difference an extra two hours of sleep a night would make? I
had a bit of trouble getting to sleep last night, anyway; it was hard to switch
my mind off, between blogging about depression
and another George episode
I don't know about George. He can be sweet and he can be
a demon. I get that he and Carlos need to make peace between
themselves, and when I'm home I try not to step in and "rescue" Carlos
all the time, but honestly, Carlos can barely come out of the bedroom
without getting jumped, and sometimes he doesn't even have to step out
of the bedroom. I get that George wants to play, but Carlos will hiss or growl when George charges at him, and
George doesn't seem to recognize what that means, and of course when
Carlos runs, George follows. I know that it's natural, but hey, so is
poison ivy, or lions killing gazelles. Natural isn't always good.
that's not even getting into when George turns on me
. I can understand
that if I pick him up to get him away from Carlos, he doesn't want to,
so he'll try to bite. But last night, he was winding around my legs,
seeming sweet, and then decided to attack them instead, and what the
hell? Then this morning, when I let him out of the office, I got back in
bed, and he decided that he had to attack my foot, which wasn't even
moving, but he apparently felt it was taunting him through the blanket, or something. Or
last night, when he sniffed at his water bowl and then turned away from
it, so I thought maybe he wanted fresh water, cats can be funny that
way. I brought him fresh water, and he sniffed it and then tried to turn
the bowl over. What the hell?
I don't know what he's thinking,
obviously, and I know the whole depression thing is a factor in how I'm
dealing, or not dealing, but he's not making things easier. I don't want
to give up too soon, I'd hate to give him back, but is it going to
work? Can I leave them alone together for over a week, other than the pet sitter coming in, and not damage Carlos by
it? I feel so bad for him, my baby. When I do shut George away, Carlos
walks around warily for a while, looking around corners, then is so
pathetically happy to curl up with me, and purr, and have his ears
scratched. Sigh. One day at a time, right?
I made some progress this
weekend on the knitted duck feet booties, but not as much as I'd hoped
to. I'm at another very fiddly part, and with my threshold for
frustration being so low right now, I put them aside when I started getting wound up
by them, and picked up something else for the sake of my sanity. In
fact, I finished the current purse sock, and cast on the second one, but
I also cast on a new sock. See? Crappy-lighting-picture?
I wound up this yarn, some Happy
Feet I got when Windsor Button Shop was closing
super-spring-greens-and-yellows, and started the Down the Rabbit-Hole
them. I like the ribbing, it's nothing complicated, but instead of a
K1P1, you knit through the back, which gives a nice little twist to it. Then the pattern is a simple one with a traveling line, easy to see where I am. I
just got a pair of Karbonz needles to try--ooh, carbon fiber!--and was
ready for some more color. Not that I don't like the cornflower blue of
the purse socks, but ... well, I'm not a monogamous knitter, and there's
nothing wrong with that.
It wasn't a completely non-productive
weekend, even aside from knitting. I ran the dishwasher and emptied it,
and hand-washed a bunch of dishes. I also dirtied more, making up a
comforting batch of chicken-and-stuffing. I did a bunch of laundry, and
put away the delicates after they hung to dry. I went to the library and
Wilson's, put gas in the car, had dinner with friends.
watched the Bruins, who almost completely sucked Saturday afternoon,
then kind-of sucked but pulled themselves together Sunday night. They're
finding re-entry after the Olympics a rough ride, but hopefully it will
get better. Soon.
Along with the new needles, I got a
replacement for the laser pointer*, since the little one I got as a cat
toy was small, cheap, hard on my hands, and died pretty quickly. I got this one
, which is much easier on my hands, the button can be pressed
for more than a second without denting my finger, the light doesn't
flicker, it takes a standard AAA battery, and goodness, but the cats go
bats for it. Like, I don't want to use it late at night because the
noise of the thundering herd could disturb the neighbors. I also have to
be careful not to send George at
Carlos in pursuit of the red dot, but
I've played with Carlos when George is in solitary, and he likes it too.
*Also a book and more magnesium powder; I like to shop locally, but sometimes Amazon just wins.
is it that the holiday calendar on my Google calendar tells me when
Thomas Jefferson's birthday is, but not St. Patrick's Day? I mean, I know when it is ... but I know when Christmas and the 4th of July are, too, and it lists those. Weird.
spring will come, and the weather will get warmer. I certainly want to
believe it will happen. Despite the fact that, according to the weather
man, the temps, in the 20s this week, are 20 degrees below average for the
time of year. (Isn't that awesome to know? Sooo helpful, not.) And when it
warms up, assuming it does, we'll see how my mood reacts. For that
matter, whether it's warmer or not, we spring forward this weekend, which
will add an hour of daylight, and maybe that will help.